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Dear mama

Dear Mama, By the time I post this it means you are no longer with us. I have attempted to give you this letter numerous times but always with a nagging hesitation that it might upset you or cause your condition to worsen because of the natural sadness farewell letters bring. Truth is, I just …

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Things that Crawl

The bones of those who died before you

They’re scattered all around me

They form a ray of black light

Dark and soggy, twisted, muddied, round

Why did you let go

You. Do. Not. Exist.

Yes, I am smart, well-read, and have a wicked sense of humor. In fact, I’d date myself if I could. And as you noticed from this previous statement- I am also teeming with self-confidence. I have this power over you that you wouldn’t recognize if it were staring you in the face.

The Shadow of This Wall

This world is a haven for the desperate and confused and I am at its center, spinning with renewed focus and determination. Cause even if I try to decipher everything happening around me, words will fail, efforts won’t impress, and life goes on. I walk the same path but now slowly, the space between my head playing a song drives away the ghosts that used to fill my lungs.

My Dirty Little Secret (Part 2)

One time I forgot to bring my car home! I had a few (Okay, few is an understatement) beers and took the bus going home. I totally forgot I brought my car to work.

That’s the problem with getting wasted. You can’t help but forget things. (Mental note: Do not bring kids with me when drinking.)

We Kiss

I know there a million important things you need to do.

But I hope none of them is as important as being in this moment— in this lifetime. Your lips are smiling, our saliva— a beautiful gooey mess of liquid aphrodisiac.

Metronome

Everything about us was a result of perfect timing.

And yet somehow we knew our time would never come.

Our destruction, seamless.

Separation, mind-blowing.

The Spot

Lucky is the man who finds that part of you that makes your soul disintegrate a little everywhere. That’s what this spot can do. That spot is you.